I’m referencing a post by my bloggie friend Betty, who inspired this response.
We all feel inept and bumbling when it comes to parenting, but most people are afraid to say it. We pretend we know “the answer” or “the way,” so that we can put our minds at ease that we will turn out people who follow our advice but really we are all just floundering around here creating people who will one day do things that make us cry, or laugh, or tear our hair out, or wail inside with almost unendurable pain.
You have to create a way of living that will work for your family. I’m not saying it’s okay to treat children any old way, either. As the product of a destructive home environment and the survivor of some horrible events, I am know the mess that can make.
Yes, there are some absolutes: Don’t teach racism. Don’t beat your children, with belts OR words. Don’t leave them alone in the bathtub. That sort of thing. And yes, there’s even empirical evidence that breastfeeding is best, and attachment parenting can be really good psychologically. But that doesn’t mean it will all work out perfectly. I have almost never yelled at my daughter. I fed her organic, I wore her everywhere, I breastfed her and tried to do everything I thought was right, which is to say, everything I was capable of doing at the moment. But she is nearly an adult, and she makes some choices that are unhealthy and self-destructive.
I like to quip to my friends that we all mess up our children. The trick is to give them good stories to tell their shrinks.
We could do this to ourselves forever, this throwing ourselves up against the wall of condemnation and inadequacy. We can damage ourselves and ruin any chance of being even a remotely good parent if we aren’t careful.
What all of it comes down to is this:
Love them.
Validate them.
Love them.
Hug them.
Love them.
Let go.
Let go.
Let go.
Twelve Steps Away From My Desk
Posted in Writing with tags blogging, comments, motherhood, teenagers, Writing, writing with children on May 1, 2009 by Ms. Ex“My name is Jennifer, and I’m addicted to comment threads.”
“Hi, Jennifer.”
It started innocently enough.
Or not.
Look, I’m a black hole of need, okay? If some brilliant person wants to throw down the gauntlet and have a little back and forth wordplay, I’m all over it. I live to be clever. I need the affirmation that my brain has not, as I previously suspected, turned to mush.
I hit a comment thread and I just can’t let go.
I have even been known to dream about commenting.
I’m sick, I tell you.
I’m walking my dog, pushing the stroller, and all I can think is, “What would the saucy tomato bunny from that comic pulp fiction thread say next?”
I spend 10 minutes or more editing a comment. If I’m away from the computer for a while, I get edgy and irritable. My skin itches. This is a cry for help, people. I need a serious interventi
um hey. this is barelyknittedtogs or whatever she calls herself daughter. i’m sick of like sitting here waiting 4 her to finish ths whatever thing n i don wnt to sit around herr all freakin day so just like go do somethin else for a while and giv me back my moms for chrissakes. all this comment anxiety shit is harshing my mellow.
❤ (thats a kiss and rite now it means buh-bye 4 all u old foks who don’t know)
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